+----------------------------------------------------------------------------+ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ ¦ United Phone Losers ¦ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ +----------------------------------------+ ¦ ¦ ¦ The Secret Life Of reb0rn ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦ by reb0rn ¦ ¦ ¦ +----------------------------------------+ ¦ ¦ ¦ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ ¦ 07/05/99 Issue No 12 File: UPL012.txt ¦ ¦----------------------------------------------------------------------------¦ +----------------------------------------------------------------------------+ Okay, the following is the work of reb0rn. reb0rn is a friend of mine. Yes, I have friends. He runs the San Diego PLA site which can be found at http://payf0ne.cjb.net. He is also a member of FourOneOne. FourOneOne is a group that me and reb0rn put together. f00 can be found lovingly at http://www.FourOneOne.zzn.com. Anyway, this is a log of a conversation reb0rn had on AIM (AOL Instant Messanger). He is under the nick Flux0r6669. Everything he says is completely made up. It's not true. reb0rn's life may be pathetic, but not this pathetic. Anyway, everthing the other party says was probably made up too, and we have reason to beleive that they we're getting off on reb0rn's story. I don't know why I made this into a UPL issue, I just found it pretty amusing. Enjoy --- linear +----------------------------------------------------------------------------+ ¦ reb0rn's Crazy Made Up Life... ¦ +----------------------------------------------------------------------------+ TessKnows: hiya. up to no good? Flux0r6669: up to only good Flux0r6669: im not doing anything TessKnows: how come you are online, thin? TessKnows: then Flux0r6669: i dont know... im always online TessKnows: what did you do to celebrate the 4th? Flux0r6669: um, nothing... i did go to ihop and splash kechup all over the place, the cap was not on very tight TessKnows: i hate how the tables are always sticky at ihop Flux0r6669: lol Flux0r6669: its part of the charm TessKnows: and i don't think they clean those thermos coffee pots very well TessKnows: but they have decent blinzes Flux0r6669: again, bad coffee... part of the charm TessKnows: you find these things charming? Flux0r6669: some what TessKnows: so, no fireworks? Flux0r6669: no... i was hoping i would hear or see gun shots though TessKnows: hmmm ... that struck a nerve with me Flux0r6669: how so? TessKnows: i'm not sure you want to know why TessKnows: but i'll tell you if you want Flux0r6669: well i guess i want to know TessKnows: this afternoon i dropped my son off at camp at saint michael's abbey up in silverado canyon Flux0r6669: umm k? TessKnows: i was driving home in the far right lane and i noticed that cars ahead of me were swerving to avoid something in the road TessKnows: as i approached, i saw what looked like a body lying near the median of the road. so i pulled over onto the shoulder and took the medical kit out of my trunk and ran across the to where the guy was Flux0r6669: um are you a nurse? TessKnows: no ... it is just one of those stupid kits with bandaids and stuff. i am a mortgage banker ... Flux0r6669: um go on... TessKnows: it was a young hispanic male and i thought what i was seeing was a hit and run victim -- he was face up with his head against the edge of the median -- i thought maybe he had been hit and thrown a distance and had cracked his skull on the curb part of the median. TessKnows: there was blood and what i think was brain matter all over. the rest of his body was laying in the road and people were still swerving to get around him. TessKnows: i don't have a cell phone, so i tried to flag someone down, but nobody would stop. people were slowing down and gawking out their windows, then just continuing on finally a biker and his girfriend pulled over -- they had a cell phone and called 911 TessKnows: he seemed to have a faint pulse and his chest appeared to be rising and falling very slightly. the breathing may have been wishful thinking on my part, but there was a faint pulse. TessKnows: there was just so much blood i didn't know what to do ... it was leaking slowly out of his head and mouth ... his tee shirt was all pulled up around his chest and wet with blood Flux0r6669: ummm TessKnows: i don't know cpr and there was so much blood everywhere ... i did kneel down and talk to him ... i was hoping he was still alive. i just told him to keep hanging on because help was on the way TessKnows: it wasn't a hit and run ... the police officer told me he had been shot twice in the back of the head and there was what appeared to be an exit wound under his chin. they checked his pockets and they found some live rounds, so i reckon he had a weapon too at one point TessKnows: apparently he was shot execution style, then whoever did it just dumped him on the road TessKnows: anyway ... that's why your joke about guns hit a nerve with me Flux0r6669: um TessKnows: sorry if i grossed you out Flux0r6669: thats kind of like, when my best friend killed himself Flux0r6669: its was sick TessKnows: really? Flux0r6669: it was even Flux0r6669: yes really TessKnows: why did he do it? TessKnows: stupid question ... Flux0r6669: i dont know... he did not tell me TessKnows: and you'll never know, i guess. did he leave a note? TessKnows: was he depressed? TessKnows: did you find his body? Flux0r6669: he wrote his girlfriends name in his blood then he died, no his mom found him... TessKnows: oh god TessKnows: how horrible ... TessKnows: i think i should feel more about what happened today -- i mean, i can't sleep, but i'm not too disturbed about what i saw. Flux0r6669: not really, worse things have happened in my life then that TessKnows: oddly enough, i remained calm throughout the entire thing. the blood was more fascinating than frightening to me, i think. Flux0r6669: yeah i understand TessKnows: what i did feel was outrage at the people who just drove by ... jesus, that's so cold. i wish there was something i could have done. i wonder if he really was still alive when i pulled over TessKnows: what has happened in your life that was more horrible than your best friend taking his own life? TessKnows: do you mind my asking? Flux0r6669: no i dont mind Flux0r6669: my life is an open book to all TessKnows: it shouldn't be Flux0r6669: my life has been a uphill battle for all involved TessKnows: for all? why is that? Flux0r6669: my first love, stabed me in the upper leg TessKnows: my word ... how old were you at the time? Flux0r6669: i was 13 TessKnows: had she ever done anything violent before? TessKnows: what drove her too it? Flux0r6669: she on the other hand was 19 Flux0r6669: i dont know till this day TessKnows: you were involved with a 19 year old at 13??? Flux0r6669: i think hshe was a meth user Flux0r6669: yes TessKnows: i guess that isn't so odd ... i lived with my 20 year old boyfriend when i was 14 TessKnows: wow ... TessKnows: what was the extent of your injury? Flux0r6669: well.. it was not so bad Flux0r6669: i lost a bit of movement Flux0r6669: but thats all TessKnows: may i ask ... what kind of relationship did you have with her? TessKnows: that just seems such a vast age difference for a 13 year old male Flux0r6669: well, i only had sex with her once Flux0r6669: maybe thats what drove her to it TessKnows: was she trying to kill you? Flux0r6669: i think so TessKnows: or just hurt you? TessKnows: ah TessKnows: what happened afterwards? Flux0r6669: i kicked her and she ran out... and i called 911 TessKnows: was she arrested? were your parents freaked out? Flux0r6669: the cops looked for her but did not find it, i dont have parents to be freaked out Flux0r6669: i live with my brother and sisters TessKnows: are you an orphan? Flux0r6669: kind of... i mean my mom left with her fucking girlfriend... and my dad is a drunk TessKnows: that's very sad Flux0r6669: yeah i guess Flux0r6669: for someone else Flux0r6669: i got over it and moved on TessKnows: okay. i was just trying to empathize a bit ... Flux0r6669: i was just saying TessKnows: i thought you said (in our last conversation) that you were still receiving some form of financial support from your parents ... did i misunderstand? Flux0r6669: grandparents TessKnows: i see Flux0r6669: my life is shite, and thats only the half of it TessKnows: tell me more, then ... Flux0r6669: if you want Flux0r6669: well i have a problem with girls now Flux0r6669: my new girlfriend is a strange one Flux0r6669: and my home life if you can call it that sucks TessKnows: strange in what way? TessKnows: why? Flux0r6669: my brother is an asshole Flux0r6669: my girlfriend is all in to strange things i rather not go in to it TessKnows: strange as in dangerous? Flux0r6669: yes... Flux0r6669: very TessKnows: strange as in daring and wild? Flux0r6669: it makes me very uneasy TessKnows: do you like what she is into, or does it scare you? TessKnows: ah TessKnows: you don't want to tell me? Flux0r6669: i dont talk to anyone about it TessKnows: have you talked to her about it? Flux0r6669: no never! TessKnows: but you say it worries you TessKnows: if you are concerned, shouldn't you talk to her? Flux0r6669: i might lose he and be alone again Flux0r6669: her TessKnows: please tell me. maybe i can offer you some good advice. maybe not, but i can try TessKnows: besides, i am just an imaginary online person, remember? Flux0r6669: ok... Flux0r6669: i dont know where to start Flux0r6669: its really strange TessKnows: how long have you known her TessKnows: ? Flux0r6669: 2 years now i guess TessKnows: how did you meet? Flux0r6669: at a a dance club TessKnows: how old is she? Flux0r6669: my friend neo dragged me there Flux0r6669: 24 TessKnows: okay ... so tell me about it TessKnows: what she does that worries you Flux0r6669: well... i dont know, um she likes to have me hit her when we are together, like in bed and stuff Flux0r6669: thats just some of what she makes me do TessKnows: that is not so unusual TessKnows: but it sounds like you are not into that Flux0r6669: well, when she makes me cut off her air suply it gets odd TessKnows: that can be dangerous Flux0r6669: thats what i say TessKnows: is that the only way she gets aroused? Flux0r6669: she does not want to hear it Flux0r6669: no thats not the only way Flux0r6669: she loves to have sex in public places Flux0r6669: like in bathrooms at the movies TessKnows: well ... that's not so unusual either TessKnows: doesn't that kind of turn you on too? TessKnows: sorry ... just asking Flux0r6669: once she gave me head in THE MOVIES! yeah of couse it does, im 18 im always set for that stuff TessKnows: well, that behavior is not really dangerous -- it is sort of risky and fun TessKnows: but the other thing ... Flux0r6669: thats not the bad stuff TessKnows: that worries me TessKnows: back to the asphixiation thing ... does she have you use your hands or a ligature? Flux0r6669: one night at a party she took off and i had no clue where she went Flux0r6669: when i found her she was in the bathroom... cutting her inner legs with a bunch of people watching TessKnows: she really does enjoy pain, then ... it isn't just a role play game for her Flux0r6669: not at all TessKnows: what did you think when you saw her doing that? TessKnows: did you make her stop? Flux0r6669: hell yah i did Flux0r6669: we left the party right away TessKnows: what was her reaction? Flux0r6669: we never talked about it Flux0r6669: you still there?? Flux0r6669: did i freak you out? TessKnows: no Flux0r6669: ok good Flux0r6669: do you want me to stop? TessKnows: no Flux0r6669: ok, well she really likes blood... she cuts her self when we have sex, some times she cuts me too TessKnows: do you enjoy that? Flux0r6669: and she makes us keep the tv on the food network the whole time, she likes the big knifes i guess... no i hate when she does it TessKnows: on a certain level, do you like playing out her fantasy? TessKnows: the food network? Flux0r6669: maybe, i just want to make her happy TessKnows: reb0rn ... are you pullling my leg? Flux0r6669: yeah and QVC when they are selling knifes Flux0r6669: no not at all Flux0r6669: i told you i have a messed up life Flux0r6669: you said you wanted to hear it TessKnows: yes i did TessKnows: i'm sorry ... please continue TessKnows: some of the stuff you described is perfectly fine and normal ... but she has crossed the line. eventually, she is going to get seriously hurt. if you are a participant you may be the one doing the hurting. also, she may hurt you. do you not value your life? Flux0r6669: well its just stuff like that... i mean she really likes blood... thats why i said i understod your fascination with the blood Flux0r6669: no my life is dumb TessKnows: i see Flux0r6669: but i guess i dont want to die TessKnows: do you consider yourself a survivor? Flux0r6669: i guess i have to, i mean i lived through a lot TessKnows: that is what i consider myself, although from what you have told me, it sounds like you have had it rougher than me TessKnows: have your relationships with women always been this tumultuous? Flux0r6669: no Flux0r6669: i had a really nice grirlfriend Flux0r6669: we talked about having kids and making a family and all that good stuff Flux0r6669: god i have never talked about her with anyone Flux0r6669: i wish she was still here TessKnows: what happened? Flux0r6669: i miss her so much Flux0r6669: she was killed in a car crash with her firends Flux0r6669: the driver was drunk Flux0r6669: and they hit a tree TessKnows: awful Flux0r6669: yeah... out of everything in my life... i wish it had been me Flux0r6669: and she was still here TessKnows: you have suffered a great deal of loss TessKnows: if your current girlfriend frightens you with her behavior, why do you stay with her? Flux0r6669: who else would be with me? im messed up... TessKnows: it doesn't sound like she wants to be helped ... TessKnows: everybody is messed up and broken inside TessKnows: some a little more than others TessKnows: some just hide it better Flux0r6669: you know what the worst thing about my girlfriend is.... she calls me daddy, that is just so wrong TessKnows: yes, it is wrong TessKnows: it sounds like she was abused as a child Flux0r6669: i think she was Flux0r6669: she has never said anything tho TessKnows: i see this whole thing coming to a rather disasterous ending at some point ... Flux0r6669: yeah... thats the way things work out with me TessKnows: do you want her to get help? can you convince her to? Flux0r6669: i dont think me bring that up would help Flux0r6669: i need to go.... 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